Just two more weeks. Two weeks until I officially surpass the seemingly impossible hurdle of the first trimester of pregnancy! These first 11 weeks of pregnancy have been the scariest, most nauseating, yet most incredible weeks of my life. While in the darkest trenches of our IVF journey, I never thought we’d get to the … More 13 // Miracle in the Making
It has been nearly three weeks since we found out we are pregnant! These weeks have been eventful, as I’ve been riding the waves of fear, anxiety, and let’s not forget – nausea. The fear and anxiety still remain, of course, due to our previous losses; however, my physical symptoms remind me daily that our little one … More 12 // Riding the Waves
I can’t believe I am writing these words – I. Am. PREGNANT!!! Yes, I have been pregnant before, and yes, each time has been extremely special for me. The knowledge that a life is being formed inside my body – a perfect blend of Dave and I, growing and developing. Unfortunately, our past pregnancies have … More 11 // We are Pregnant!!!
I’ve been here before. I’ve experienced the intense anxiety leading up to a frozen embryo transfer multiple times. One may think I’d be accustomed to the process by now. But no matter what I do, whether it be positive self-talk, prayer, or distraction, I can’t completely rid myself of the feelings of fear and doubt. … More 10 // A Mix of Emotions
Hi everyone! It’s been a while since I’ve written! In the latest blog post, my husband did an incredible job describing our journey from his perspective, and I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to read it alongside you all. It has without a doubt strengthened our love and my appreciation for God, … More 09 // Inhale Courage, Exhale Fear
When Em first started this blog, she thought it would be neat to have me share my experience. So let’s do this! First things first. I need to give a huge shout out to my wife, Emily, for sharing our story so beautifully with all of you! I had no idea she was such a … More 08 // IVF from the Partner’s Perspective
It’s odd to be all caught up and writing “live” for this blog. I somewhat miss sitting down at my computer in silence, referring to my journal for inspiration and key memories, and reflecting on just how far we’ve come. There is a sense of fear and uncertainty when I now put my words on … More 07 // The Best is Yet to Come
“Lord, it’s just who I am to plan, dream of the future, and set goals for myself, my career, and my family. I know You’ve given me that gift and given me these desires of my heart, and part of living an intentional life calls for making these plans. But may I always put You … More 06 // Our Genetic Testing Results
“One night I had a dream. I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonged to me, the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before … More 05 // Starting Back at Square One
We had now lost two babies, and I was ready to fight. Like, really fight. Not that I wasn’t before, but our failed pregnancy test shook me to the core and the competitive part of me said, “this isn’t over.” We of course mourned the loss of our second child, cried for days, and once … More 04 // Third Time’s a Charm
“I am helpless. Without the work of Your hands. You are able, God, to raise me up again. I am willing. Lord I will run after you. I will surrender to the One who always sees me through.” A few weeks after we lost our baby, I hit rock bottom. I was driving to a … More 03 // Our Frozen Embryo Transfer
If I could put this post simply, I would say this: IVF is no joke. It’s complicated, it’s painful, it’s emotional. But it is also an absolute miracle from God, as it helps countless couples become parents who would have otherwise had no chance. This post will be my longest, but I wanted to provide … More 02 // Egg Retrieval and Our First Miscarriage
North of Hope 